september air comes cold
feelings rush back and unfold
speeing, crashing, burning through
memories in my mind of you
gone so fast too fast to catch
years have gone and can’t come back
so now i’ve closed my eyes
closing seconds of our time
see the shore light up night sky
see the beach swing summers high
august shower after heat
smell of rain on dry concrete
feel the air turn cold around
see leaves fall blur the ground
wet road slide slither by
catch reflections petrol sky
when I feel I can’t move on
and my will is not so strong
moments of uncertainty
behind your smile I want to be
down the front where we used to talk
down the streets where we used to walk
these places I will be
will you meet me?
those are words from a longview tune that they did with ulrich schnauss. amazing tune. i love the lyrics because i can heavily identify with them right now. it’s like someone else wrote what i am feeling. so, thanks longview.
i will not be coming back to victoria this weekend. i am a bit torn up about it .. but i really can’t afford to live in two cities. plus i will never be able to settle in here unless i spend more time here and get to know more of my friends that already live here.. there are just some really special people in victoria that i do miss a lot right now. and i feel like i am not that far away.. but i know when people leave victoria.. it’s like it doesn’t matter where they go .. they just are not there. and so i am not there. but.. please don’t forget about me.
i never forgot about my friends when they moved away, but i can admit to a lack of effort trying to stay in touch. well, maybe i shouldn’t say that. partly my website here, this, is for staying in touch. and i’ve made websites for some of my friends that are far away so that we -can- stay in touch..
my personal phone is a mere ghost of what it used to be. it rings once every few days. a lot of my friends in victoria really are still a big part of me.. i think when you spend 26 years in a community, the friend-equity you build up is so huge that it’s really hard to see when you’re still there.. now that i have moved away.. i think i realize more of what i had and all the wonderful people i know there.
speaking of victoria and community.. tomorrow they will announce on the news on CFAX 1070 that i am the winner of the distinguished Citation Rose award for above and beyond community involvement. they sent a notice early today about it along with some goodies. it is a great honour and i am grateful for the recognition.. too bad i wont be there to hear it.